Skipping to Nowhere

monster in the making

2010-06-10T16:43:00.003-06:00

i've realized that, you like

to:

(maim, hurt, pull

medowntotheground

and climb over my

creepycrawly

body in order to boost yourself

up up

up.

send a rock sailing through

this glass that's housing the

confidense that i've been growing

eversopainstakingly.

you

stopstartstopstart,

and so I

startstopstartstop

walking with my tail between my legs,

running when i hear steps behind me.)

you thrive on it.

i do not.

one in six BILLION

2010-06-08T22:09:00.002-06:00

you

can go ahead and stand up

now,

it's hard to pick you out,

you're one in a crowd of six billion, and

i'm starting to wonder

if i'll ever fucking find you.

i can't hear you

2010-06-07T22:53:00.002-06:00

scratch that.

you're amplified, roaring screaming

pushing me down down down.

i crawl beneath your gaze and

drown in this pool that

has become

me myself and

men with mileage, men with class

2009-12-19T19:28:00.000-07:00

because i lovelove
love,
what i cannot have.

cannibals and wildfires

2009-12-07T11:28:00.002-07:00

i feel like i have to detach
myself from you,
before you get
bored of my words
that i spend too long conjuring.

" two shots left. one for you, one for me "

it makes me sad,
because i
wonder who would save that bullet for me.

your heart is three sizes too big.

2009-10-19T20:06:00.002-06:00

today,

you've made me smile, laugh, dance down the street.
we've talked, whispered, fought with chairs.
i realized that during those two long years,
where we stopped holding hands, cut off connections,
i felt very blue,
unlike now,
where i feel green, like spring, like the colour of your eyes.
thank you.

today,

i didn't need your help
to break out of my many-layered shell.
but i do hope you'll come tomorrow, because
i'm really hoping for the best for you.

today,

i learned that some people remember me,
like i've wanted to be remembered.

today,

i've realized that it's easier to think of a
my life is great than a my life is awful.

today,

i understand my math homework.

blaaaaame it on the illicit activities.

2009-09-12T21:34:00.002-06:00

gathering like sheep,
the pot-smoking booze drinking leaders of tomorrow
celebrating the hell of a ride that is

a well-rounded, structured childhood.

water like glass, leaves on fire

2009-09-07T20:50:00.002-06:00

there's nothing I adore more,
than the air in my face,

wind at my back,

as I hurtle down the streets and avenues
of my teaspoon-sized world.

" careful there, look both ways before you cross the road "

streetlit motorcycles

2009-08-11T00:51:00.001-06:00

one in the morning,
listening to the cars ripping down empty streets.

sounds like the place to be

zoom zoom zoom

dusty words, sittin' on a shelf.

2009-07-30T23:09:00.002-06:00

reading old blogs of mine.
and i'm thinking wow, i used to be able to put together
a decent little verse.
but i'm also remembering how goddamn good i felt,
when your little love notes,
were written for no one but me.

it's a pretty addictive way to feel.

red on white

2009-07-01T16:18:00.003-06:00

so, one hundred forty-two years ago,
this little place i like to call
canada was founded.
one hundred forty-two, that deserves one hell
of a birthday.
i say we party.

wednesday's spent alone

2009-06-24T21:22:00.004-06:00

it's kinda funny how i'm sitting here,
regretting my silly
little decisions,
yet i'm happy in knowing
that's it's better this way.

better than slapping on my half-assed little mask
of someone who i could only hope to be.